It feels like I’ve been at this forever, trying to make it, get my foot in the door, and make a name for myself. I realized that I’m only 22 years old (freshly, too), and I have a LOT of time to reach my goals. I stress so much over this, and I freak out all the time, but there’s no reason for me to. I’ve seen, with my own eyes, someone work their butt off for 15 years, in different fields, struggling at times with jobs and money, and their hard work has finally paid off. If my sister can do it, I can do it. I’m not very good at it, but I have to be patient. My time will come. Congrats, sis. I knew you’d do it. They’ve always said I’m just like you in a ton of ways *throws up*. Lets hope I can be like you. I can do it, too, thanks to you. Love.

-A

Its been months since I’ve done any real work in a studio. The fact that the previous sentence is true absolutely destroys me. I dedicated the better part of my past 2 years on becoming a respectable engineer, and the past 6 months or so makes all of that hard work seem so distant. Lately, though, I’ve been able to come in contact with some people that can really help me, and I’ve even been in serious talks about internships at some really cool places, especially with one of my favorite producers based out of Portland, OR. The one thing stopping me from doing this is my lack of funds to get over there, and finding a place to stay during my potential limited time as an intern/assistant. My future is right at my fingertips, but I’m not able to grab hold of it just yet. I’ve been patiently waiting, and it seems like slowly, but surely, my time is coming soon. I can’t wait to get back to work.

-A

I’m not one to prematurely say things, just because its in the heat of the moment, but I’ve been more sure the past 3 months about something than I have ever been in my life. I never thought I’d find someone as special as Selena. She’s so good to me. She puts up with me. She’s somehow been able to calm down this guy who was once very short-tempered and had very little patience. I feel very at ease with her. We have very similar personalities, a similar sense of humor, and we’re interested in a TON of the same stuff, especially music, which is awesome. I really stumbled upon the person I’ve been waiting for, for a long time now. Since the day I saw her name on my work schedule as the person who was training me last November, I was interested, and I hadn’t even met her yet. Besides my family, I love Selena more than anything, and I really mean that. I hope I never lose her. Ever.

I WILL DO THIS